Hello, how are you today?
Did February wreck you or did you find a way through?
Did you get to make your statements?
Are you ready to go?
How are you going to start?
What are you going to do?
Why are you doing that?
Arghhh!
All these questions hey!
All these questions that demand a neatly packaged response.
Yep, this is our third stage and these questions are coming for us.
They are coming for us from the outside and the inside.
These questions are going to come strong.
They are going to come loud.
And they are going to upset and distract us if we aren't just a little prepared.
Who in your world is asking you questions?
Who is sending you into a tail spin at the moment?
Is it family?
Is it friends?
Is it you?
From the outside, innocent enquiries of “so, what are you up to these days?” or "what do you do?" can send you on an excruciating journey of word mincing and body shifting as you worm your way through some uncomfortable explanation.
This picture came into being because one person asked me “What do you call that thing you do?”
Along with my uncomfortable, high pitched giggle and calling it my “basket weaving” it left me with all THOSE questions that I berate myself with - what the hell am I doing, what is this, is this really something or just me being weird? Can this ever sustain me financially - if not then why am I doing it - am I doing it just to make myself happy - isn’t that selfish - shouldn’t I be giving my time to more constructive things?
Sound familiar?
This month is all about knowing that you have no idea what this is - and then beginning to enjoy that, in fact insist on it. Do not try to package your "this" into anything just yet - it is too young, too frail, too innocent. Keep nurturing it, not forcing or directing it. Let it direct you - let it take you where it wants to go - let it take you at the speed it is ready to move. Get comfortable in that awkward space - let your brain go nuts trying to boss you around, but ignore it - or tell it to take 5 breaths and chill out - let it know, it will be alright. When you feel the strict voices come, hush them gently - not now, not now - no deadlines, no expectations just you and your project however it may look.
Where are you going with that?
No idea.
What are you gonna do with that?
Who knows.
What is the point of this?
We’ll know later.
How is this going to look?
Not sure yet.
Are you happy?
Good god yes!
Easy this one hey!
Quiet the mind, relax the well meaners, get a big cushion and schooch on into that comfy armchair. You might as well get comfortable because this could last a while.
All the best my friends with all the things.
CX