How do you know when you have struck gold on an idea?

How do you recognize that moment in you exactly?

That moment when all the foggy and the tricky ideas have suddenly become something big, something important, something with true meaning for you?

For me?

I weirdly burst into tears.

It isn’t so much an Oprah aha.

It is more of a “oh god!”

A total body / brain overwhelm.

Even a rush of dread.

Weird hey.

But when I react in this way – I know – Oh gawd this is one of those.

This is one of those things that mean a lot.

(I guess that is where the dread comes).

A part of me already, instinctively knows that if it means this much it is going to put me in a very vulnerable place.

And inside body Caz doesn’t like that.

Inside body Caz thinks she’s got enough going on – without feeling like she has to put herself on the line.

Under the radar Caz…stay under the radar.

But thinky Caz kind of hates under the radar.

She gets bored.

She gets itchy.

She gets a need to do more.

IT can be quite the sibling argument to witness.

It can be quite tedious too at this stage in my life.

But at least there is a little wisdom.

A little more wisdom, that knows what’s going on.

Knows that I am going to have to step up a bit.

Follow through.

But it doesn’t need to be this big overwhelm.

It doesn’t need to be some BIG PLAN.

It can always be a small start.

A small step.

A try.

A see.

It can be done in my own way.

At my own pace.

And that helps the sibling squabble to calm down.

To listen instead of raging.

And Caz?

Well she gets to dip her toe into that idea she struck.

And go further into this adventure of creative doing.

How do you react – when you strike gold?