“What do you call that thing you do?”
I remember this question word for word.
It came innocently,
but from someone who isn’t,
my audience.
my gang,
my people.
But do I tell myself that?
Of course not.
Off I go down that well trodden road
(the one with the long winded name)
Doubt, Defeat, floored self-esteem, attach to negativity, self sabotage Lane.
Have you found yourself on that Lane?
I’ll wave and say hi if I see you,
as we cross each other’s path.
Whether I’m on my way home again
or striding off down,
Hello Suzy!
Hi Caz!
Off down the Lane again?
Yep thought I would,
be back in 6 months.
Ok see you then.
Ughhh.
Isn’t life just a little too short
for these constant de-railments?
Isn’t life just a little too tumultuous
to keep hopping away from the thing,
that very thing,
that makes us happy?
DO we have to keep doing this
Over and over again.
Sometimes we wrap it up in pretty bows.
Overthinking,
Over perfection,
Over complicating.
I see it so clearly in my friends
then do exactly the same myself.
My packaging needs a whole re-do –
it’s too scrappy.
I need to re-think this series -
it just doesn’t say enough.
I should try new techniques – this is too basic,
too layered,
too simple,
too green,
too big, too small.
Off I go…Hi Suzy, Hi Caz.
If this new situation of quarantine has taught me anything – it is that we have so little control over outside things and we can give up on our dreams too quickly – because we attached them to things outside of ourselves.
No more.
There’s no reason or benefit.
My name is Caroline Storie.
I make quirky, stitched pictures.
They sometimes come in messy packaging.
I sometimes come in messy packaging.
But I am here.
I REALLY love what I do.
IF you have something you love to do – I LOVE to support you too.
Happiness.
That is what I call
that thing I do!
CX